Past Friends

I had a best friend who was extremely important to me, we even went on a trip to Europe together, but it didn't end well. She was my best friend for years and near the end of our friendship she became a mean and physically abusive person. Finally, after our last fight, we just didn't make up because I didn't want to be near her anymore. Kolh posted on his blog about poetry being his outlet and during this point in my life and the time that I was trying to find my identity, I also wrote a lot of poetry. I've been told I'm not too great at it but this was one of the poems that helped me get over a lost friend.

Life is Different Now

I cut my hair and changed my attitude,
and I am closer to those that actually care.
I walked away from my depression to see
if maybe things could get better for me.
Opening up to the world was difficult,
but I was able to enjoy what life showed me.
I have done it all expect change my name,
and I’m proud of the person I’ve become.
Finally I was doing what I wanted and
without the past negative feedback.

You are not a person I want to be around,
at least now that I’ve opened my eyes.
Even now you try to control my life,
but instead I am the one haunting yours.
You miss me and I can see if from afar,
 and while I am the one having fun, you are sore.
You hide it behind anger toward me,
saying that you hate my stupidity.
Maybe someday you will face the truth,
but until then I hope you suffer and hurt.

Until the day you change like I did,
farewell because I no longer care about you.

Goodbye Kayleigh

Even now, I read this poem and remember how I felt when I wrote it. It doesn't convey what I wish it would but it's hard for me to find the right words I guess. I urge you to talk about your outlets or post a poem or art piece that has helped you emotionally in a hard situation.